I smile because you need it far more than I do.
What my smile does for you it cannot do for me.
It helps you think that all is well but my heart knows otherwise.
Maybe your heart knows too.
Maybe my smile is just a lie we both understand.
"I'm fine", my smile lies, saying what you want to hear.
"She's lying", your mind says, knowing I will say what you want to hear, what you need to hear, and no less.
But for how long can this lie live on and hearts not crumble from the weight of truth unspoken?
I'm not fine, and you cannot bear the truth of that.
And I am tired of lying to help you feel better about yourself.
My smile is no longer for those who need only the sunshine and fear the rain.
I smile for those who remain with me in and out of season.
To you my smile says, "With you, I'm fine".
And you think, "With her, I'm fine too", knowing you are all she wants and needs and nothing more.
- Pavitar Kaur Gill
6th April 2019
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